~*I wanted you bad I'm so through with it Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had...thank god i dodged a bullet...*~

Hey...sorry another emotional post here...

A few days ago my friend told me that my ex is going out with the girl who he had a thing with when he was still seeing me...and when i went out with him, she was always there...Long story...but in my eyes...she came in between me and him, although its not entirely her fault.

When my friend told me that them two where going out...not gonna lie..my heart dropped and was kinda hurt. Cos it was HER! I think i would be ok if it was someone else...but the fact it was that BITCH!! I know it sounds nasty of me but I hated her for appearing into the scene. She made me go through all that pain and everything, i really hated her. BUT i would also like to thank her cos really thinking back of my ex, he was a total douchebag...a flirt, a player, a user...and i am REALLY glad i did "dodge a bullet.." So I'm glad I got away =P and met other nicer guys who treated me better than him! ;] 

Hmm... how do i feel now? Well although it hurt a lil when hearing about this...I don't really care anymore! I think i deserve better than him so she can have him. Hope he changed his selfish ways though...

so yeh...he really was the BEST THING I NEVER HAD =]

The lyrics of the song is really describing me atm =]

Heres the lyrics :

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

PISSED OFF!

Hey,
I've not posted on my blog for a long time...cos I couldn't be bothered with it haha...so went on a lil hiatus for a bit...but anyway....i'm going to have a lil tantrum fit just now.

Right now im on holiday in Hong Kong for 8 weeks...but this is my 2nd week I think? still another month to go....great....going to Singapore tomoro as well..

So anyway I'll tell you all about my holiday another time cos there's actually steam coming out from my head and I really wanna burst into tears cos im actually so upset...and angry at the same time...

Basically I've always had some issues with my mum. I always have lil arguments and I used to be soo scared of my mum cos sometimes in my opinion she handles things over the top. One time i didn't actually talk to her for months...and I lived in the same house. It was the longest I've not talked to my mum...and my dad...I don't get on with my dad at all. My dad always preferred my brothers over me cos he's hakka and they prefer boys...=[

So thats why I'm kinda close to my mum i guess but there's always been issues with her. Shes quite strict and sometimes I really don't know whats shes really thinking....The reason I'm upset it is cos I feel right now my mum prefers my lil brother over me. Like she talks to him in a nicer tone of voice but to me shes always shouting at me and always seems like she tries to find something to shout at me for. Like the stupidest stuff ever. It drives me nuts....not only that it really stresses me out as well. I always try to do stuff so my mum doesn't shout at me but she always find ways to.

For example, If it was my lil brother calls her and asks her where is or something...her tone of voice is so calming and nice. But like today...or whenever I try calling her to ask where she was, her tone is always angry, pissed off and everything and it just upsets me sooo much. I know she loves me...but sometimes she just drives me crazy...cos it feels like im not getting the same treatment...

My lil brother is like...a prince...never does anything to help round the house...and me its like i have to do everything and always get shouted at...DRIVES ME NUTS!!!

Like today i got back to the hotel and saw she was dried some clothes in the dryer so i took them out and ironed them and folded them etcetc. STILL got shouted at...FOR FECK SAKE. it just hit the point. Don't even know what ive done wrong seriously!!! sometimes i really just wanna just get away...

My aunties n uncle knows my mum always shouts at me for the stupidest reasons ever...To me it just feels like shes not even proud of me or anything, nothing I do shes pleased...My lil brother is like soooo stubborn and short-tempted and she NEVER says anything at all!!!! tbh i don't mind it...but sometimes I feel neglected i guess...though i know my mum does love me as well...but her way just seems shes not showing it....she never listens to my point of view or just thinks im stupid basically...

I really don't know how to express my feelings right now...but i'm pretty much unhappy with my mum...i'm gonna probs go to sleep and cry....just to let it all out....sorry for this post being really sad and unhappy...but I needed something to blur it all out....

xx

~*So, i won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate I'm yours..=]*~

Hello! =] 

Ok...i know i've not really been updating much...but its cos can't be bothered and other things are kinda distracting me atm! XD

hehe yeh...him kinda!  Bob lol.

Well so far...not being doing much but today we went to the casino for dinnner!  Wow...I don't usually go to the casino btw...but WOOW!! SO posh and pretty!!!! So fancy and everything!!!

@ the Glasgow Quay!! =] 

Probs looked like an idiot in front of him taking pics and stuff  

Just a glimpse of him for u! XD haha hes got a bit of korean hair lol.

hehe soo cute =]

He ordered fish cakes. Looks quite yummy!

I got tomato and basil soup yummeh!

Ok I know tomato and basil soup is just basic...but I love soup!! Usually...I would only drink soup for my dinner...so I was soo full after this!

Had steak as well!!

Urgh...I'm one of these people who can't really eat big portions!! So like he kinda had to munch most of this for me..

Im sorry for the crap quality pics lol...i was a bit embarrassed to take pics like an idiot/ tourist person! 

Just chatted for a bit and then he was talking about what he's doing for his birthday...and questioned me if i remembered his bday!!! ... Couldn't really remember!!! Well guessed it right the 2nd time and he kinda got a bit mad at me cos he told me before and I forgot lol XD. He remembered mines though...awww 

After dinner we just walked about in the casino for a bit! Holding hands and stuff   and him singing to himself again lol XD.

Went to the cinemas as well again to go see "Thor". Hmm the movie altogether was....probs 7/10. Not much fight scene wish it could have lasted a bit longer and the story to be a bit longer too!!!

He got me ice-cream and some sweets...hes trying to beast me up!!!

Oyeh...was holding his hand through the movie and haha...U__U" my fingers kinda hurt atm!!!

Hmm...i think hes told people about me!! U__U" kinda embarrassing as well...cos he showed them my pic and they think I'm pretty and that I look very young!! U___U" I'm 22!!!! 

Oyeh I made him some white chocolate strawberries too! =] And some chocolate =] hehe I hope he likes them!!! 

Also got him this lil owl light thing cos its to remind him of me since I sleep very late sometimes lol XD 

Oyeh! About the London guy...sigh...I don't think anything will happen between me and him cos hes in HK. Also people say hes just a big flirt...but I don't know hes just like that I guess...and I'm sure he will be finding some girls in HK anyway since they are soo fit..U__U"

This guy, just me and him have things in common I guess. We both like Korean things and hes just cute! Can't wait to see him next time hehe =] 

Thats all for now! =]  

Bye xxx

~*“Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.”*~

=[ looking through my phone...and I found this voice clip that my ex had left on my phone like this time last year!!...really wanna delete it...and it was soo WEIRD hearing his voice again cos I've not heard it in ages!>___< but in a way I really don't wanna hear his voice again cos everytime i hear it...my heart sinks. 

What just kinda even upsets me even more thinking how I lend him my new Iphone cos he broke his old phone...and how he was using MY phone to talk/texting HER! URRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHH SOO MAD!!! But to be honest I'm not as mad as before...but still it's somewhere in my heart there is still a scar...a BIG SCAR! =[ I don't think I can even forgive him now...even if hes acting all friendly and everything.

Oyeh a few days ago he randomly "Tango-ed" my mum Iphone...=/ was so weird...I was like sitting next to her phone and I saw his name pop up! I kinda panicked and was wondering why he was ringing my mum. I thought I done something O_O lol I was kinda urged to pick up but then again I didn't want to, so I left it =p aren't I good hehe.  ^_____^V

Then I told my mum her phone was ringing and she was like why is he calling me? I was like...i don't know? O_o confused.com...

was akward lol lucky my mum wasn't next to the phone and missed it haha XD

Right now, this guy is has disappeared out of my life...as I said thinking back at the stupid stuff I've done and everything and how i was being treated. The thing I remember most about him was the bad things so...O_o..
But yeh I think I rather leave this person out of my life, cos all he gave me was sadness and tears....

*sigh* lessoned learned :P 

anyway!! i need to sleep but I thought I would post something here! =] 

Oyeh took some nice pics on the iphone today =]

Spring is hereeeee!!=] and it's nearly summer I can't wait heheh I <3 these flowers...and when the petals fall they look like snow =] but minus the coldness haha

Going to see joey yung in concert tomorrow! =]

WOOO 

ciao ciao!! xxx

~*Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it..-Thomas Fuller*~

OMG! I just finished watching "Going the distance", it's got Drew Barrymore and Justin Long...the movie..was SOOO CUTE <3 loved it!^___^ It's more like a comedy/romantic film <3 so cute! I'm sure you guys will love it haha. I find Justin very cute XD, hes got this geeky, sweet face look to him!!! OMG got to check out his body in it too heheh ;)... let me tell u...he has one fine ASSSS LOL!! It was all shiny XD watch the movie and you will understand =]

Anyway, the movie is about the couple having a long distance relationship, and how they start to miss each other and everything... anyway I'm not good at explaining lol XD. I've had a long relationship before, and its not very good I suppose, when you can't see them when you want too and it does drive you crazy =[, things you wanna do together...Though, my ex was a big DICKHEAD!!!! and a BIG ARSEHOLLLLEE!!!! =] Yeh, he is the worlds biggest dickhead ever. But anyhow, long distance relationship is hard, because you don't know if the other person is cheating or not...and wondering what they are doing. You can't have the cuddles when you want too =[ or the kisses...but it will work if you do put your heart into it!! =]

The movie was : 8/10!

On the other hand, I would like to talk about relationships, I'm not an expert on relationships..but I'll tell you what I think about it. I wish some people who aren't ready for a relationship and they know that they aren't actually ready for one to not go into one at all! COS it's soo selfish of them, be nice to you when they want to be, or when they want something. Nasty to you when they don't need you...people are not toys...Or just wanting some action or something. In my last relationship, I just felt USED. When he wanted something, he's nice to me, when he doesn't he treated me like shit. He was a liar and a douchebag! I don't even understand why I even stayed with him...he actually knew he wasn't treated me very well, but I think I was just love blinded...I thought he was everything...but in reality he wasn't. I thought I saw a good side of him, but really...it wasn't. I believed he was a good guy deep at heart...but in the end he just...disappointed me in the end... My friends all told me he was selfish...and he wasn't worth it...I agree now...

What I mean selfish...for an example...We stayed in different cities for uni, usually it's me who goes see him, I make the effort to go see him. Usually when we go food shopping...I pay for the groceries..he doesn't say oh why don't we split it...or something like that. Sometimes, when we actually go shopping he makes me buy things for him. Ok, I might sound like I'm making him sound bad, but its the truth...I never asked much from him at all...just wanted him to care for me more. But really you can't force someone to care for you...

Sigh, I used to get upset..when I leave in the morning to catch the train, and hes just sleeping in the bed...doesn't even get up to see me off...Just leaves me to walk to the train station myself...You might think its nothing, but to me, it hurts that hes not even making the effort to do anything for me at all...

Yeh, that's it he didn't make the effort in the relationship. To me, he doesn't deserve a girlfriend at all unless he changes his selfish ways!! He think its ok to treat girls like shit!! but its not ok!!! I wish one day, he will get the same treatment to how he treated the other girls. I'm being nasty but I just hated what he did. I'm sorry if I seem like naggy old woman!!XD

Anyway! =] There's a video why you don't need a boyfriend! =]

Yah, thats right, I thought oo having a boyfriend makes my whole world complete etcetc neh, you just really need to love yourself, and I've learned not to put the person in front of you! You should be the priority number one!!!!!!! Thats my lesson learned defo!!! ;) So who ever thinks they need a boyfriend, or girlfriend....no you don't...you don't need someone to make yourself good!! Maybe the time hasn't come yet!! =], but yeh you will have lots of boy/girlfriends in the future!!  [ I hope someone is reading this ;), I hope you know who you are!!!! Heheh!]

LOL "CALM YOUR TITS!!! " or... "CALM YOUR MOOBIES"- if you are a guy...

ALSO!! he talks about break-up!!

He is soo right! What I said about, don't go into a relationship just for fun!!! Yep, what he said about after the breakup, I was blaming myself for everything, wondering why did he break up with me! what did i do wrong!?! But in reality, it wasn't me who was doing anything wrong, when it was him, he didn't even deserve me. I wasn't a bad girlfriend at all, I was very caring, done alot, ALOT of things for him. How did he repay me? Shattering my heart into pieces...never thought about my feelings at all...in the end what do I think? Hes not worth it! He did not treat me to how I treated him. Do you know..he had the cheek to tell me..a relationship was a two way thing...=/ (^&^&("!&^...made me sooooo PISSED OFF. Doesn't even know what I've done for him! 
 I wish, the tears I've cried for him, I could suck it all back in! Seriously, he doesn't even deserve a girlfriend at all. If he does, hope she breaks his heart!!! PFFT. 
Haha,  What he says is soo true though...lol...they are "ASSHOLEEESSS!!!!" LOL. But anyway, what he said, to him you might be worthless, but to other people you are "PRICELESS!!" Don't ever forget your value...=]

Okies, probs talked a lot of BS here...XD which doesn't make sense...=/ Just wanna talk about the past...cos he actually, hurt me so bad and just so angry about it every time I think about it..sigh....

ciao ciao xx