PISSED OFF!

Hey,
I've not posted on my blog for a long time...cos I couldn't be bothered with it haha...so went on a lil hiatus for a bit...but anyway....i'm going to have a lil tantrum fit just now.

Right now im on holiday in Hong Kong for 8 weeks...but this is my 2nd week I think? still another month to go....great....going to Singapore tomoro as well..

So anyway I'll tell you all about my holiday another time cos there's actually steam coming out from my head and I really wanna burst into tears cos im actually so upset...and angry at the same time...

Basically I've always had some issues with my mum. I always have lil arguments and I used to be soo scared of my mum cos sometimes in my opinion she handles things over the top. One time i didn't actually talk to her for months...and I lived in the same house. It was the longest I've not talked to my mum...and my dad...I don't get on with my dad at all. My dad always preferred my brothers over me cos he's hakka and they prefer boys...=[

So thats why I'm kinda close to my mum i guess but there's always been issues with her. Shes quite strict and sometimes I really don't know whats shes really thinking....The reason I'm upset it is cos I feel right now my mum prefers my lil brother over me. Like she talks to him in a nicer tone of voice but to me shes always shouting at me and always seems like she tries to find something to shout at me for. Like the stupidest stuff ever. It drives me nuts....not only that it really stresses me out as well. I always try to do stuff so my mum doesn't shout at me but she always find ways to.

For example, If it was my lil brother calls her and asks her where is or something...her tone of voice is so calming and nice. But like today...or whenever I try calling her to ask where she was, her tone is always angry, pissed off and everything and it just upsets me sooo much. I know she loves me...but sometimes she just drives me crazy...cos it feels like im not getting the same treatment...

My lil brother is like...a prince...never does anything to help round the house...and me its like i have to do everything and always get shouted at...DRIVES ME NUTS!!!

Like today i got back to the hotel and saw she was dried some clothes in the dryer so i took them out and ironed them and folded them etcetc. STILL got shouted at...FOR FECK SAKE. it just hit the point. Don't even know what ive done wrong seriously!!! sometimes i really just wanna just get away...

My aunties n uncle knows my mum always shouts at me for the stupidest reasons ever...To me it just feels like shes not even proud of me or anything, nothing I do shes pleased...My lil brother is like soooo stubborn and short-tempted and she NEVER says anything at all!!!! tbh i don't mind it...but sometimes I feel neglected i guess...though i know my mum does love me as well...but her way just seems shes not showing it....she never listens to my point of view or just thinks im stupid basically...

I really don't know how to express my feelings right now...but i'm pretty much unhappy with my mum...i'm gonna probs go to sleep and cry....just to let it all out....sorry for this post being really sad and unhappy...but I needed something to blur it all out....

xx

~*=[ boohoo...*~

Just...weighted myself....gained....weight...="[, meaning.....hardcore diet....=[ otherwise lala= fatty/sumo...

Just wanna lose either 1/2 stone or a stone!!! Well more like wanting to tone up grrr.....

~*“Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.”*~

=[ looking through my phone...and I found this voice clip that my ex had left on my phone like this time last year!!...really wanna delete it...and it was soo WEIRD hearing his voice again cos I've not heard it in ages!>___< but in a way I really don't wanna hear his voice again cos everytime i hear it...my heart sinks. 

What just kinda even upsets me even more thinking how I lend him my new Iphone cos he broke his old phone...and how he was using MY phone to talk/texting HER! URRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHH SOO MAD!!! But to be honest I'm not as mad as before...but still it's somewhere in my heart there is still a scar...a BIG SCAR! =[ I don't think I can even forgive him now...even if hes acting all friendly and everything.

Oyeh a few days ago he randomly "Tango-ed" my mum Iphone...=/ was so weird...I was like sitting next to her phone and I saw his name pop up! I kinda panicked and was wondering why he was ringing my mum. I thought I done something O_O lol I was kinda urged to pick up but then again I didn't want to, so I left it =p aren't I good hehe.  ^_____^V

Then I told my mum her phone was ringing and she was like why is he calling me? I was like...i don't know? O_o confused.com...

was akward lol lucky my mum wasn't next to the phone and missed it haha XD

Right now, this guy is has disappeared out of my life...as I said thinking back at the stupid stuff I've done and everything and how i was being treated. The thing I remember most about him was the bad things so...O_o..
But yeh I think I rather leave this person out of my life, cos all he gave me was sadness and tears....

*sigh* lessoned learned :P 

anyway!! i need to sleep but I thought I would post something here! =] 

Oyeh took some nice pics on the iphone today =]

Spring is hereeeee!!=] and it's nearly summer I can't wait heheh I <3 these flowers...and when the petals fall they look like snow =] but minus the coldness haha

Going to see joey yung in concert tomorrow! =]

WOOO 

ciao ciao!! xxx

~*Lets all hold hands...and pray...*~

I'm sure everyone knows about the horrible earthquake and tsunami which struck North-East Japan. A magnitude of 8.9, which is one of the most powerful earthquake that Japan has ever had. Over 100,000 people have been reported dead...and thousands of people still missing or waiting to be rescued...

Many families have lost their loving homes...there are still many people who are waiting to be rescued without food,water,or electricity...=[

If you want to see the pictures of the afterwards from the earthquake, visit here

Pictures of the earthquake.

I wanted to cry when I was looking through the pictures, it pained me to see how the Elders where suffering, they looked very tired and weak! =[ Also, you find a woman trying to find her husband through the wrecked houses...='[, 

If you really want to help Japan to rebuild their lives, rebuild their country..., you can help to donate some money via the Red Cross website! Although, you can't change what has happened or you can't help them bring back the people who were taken away from this tragedy...but at least you are showing your sincere to Japan, 

Red Cross* Help Japan! Do the right thing! =]

If you live in the US, 

you can also help, by simply sending a text! Easy as ABC! 

TXT REDCROSS TO 90999, to make a $10, donation to Japan!!

Just a lil poster, I made....SO PRAY FOR JAPAN!!!!!!!!

I found some really nice posters that other people have made...

I hope Japan will get recover very soon..=[...