~*Lets get the parteeeeehh Startedddd =p*~

Urgh im so tired form Zumba/gym/sauna... mega tired..-___-" as my friend took me home i think i just k.o'd while she was talking to me lol..
packing my bags for tomoro...and I really don't know what to bring >___< but im defo going to bed early!!!
yeh you heard me! lol Im going to bed early =p so hopefully i can wake up early n have a shower etcetc  =p Made a list of what to pack.. but i dont no what to pack really...hmmm

I need to go in town to see if they have any bunny ears left =[ cos i lost miness

I CANT WAIT FOR 2MORO GAAAHHHHHH
bring it onn!!! gonna be sooo many people there =p

ciao ciao xx

~*To whatsapp? or not to whatsapp, that is the question...*~

LOL sorry for the gay title, I didn't know what else to put as a title! Yes, the title does say all though. Whatsapp, is the social network for mobile phones, it's like msn, where you can send msgs, voice recordings, images etcetc.

But hmm, it's kinda weird right, when I text people, they takes AGES to reply or just reply really slow...but when they use whatsapp they msg right away!!!O_O so im like wondering...what is the difference? Its just kinda the same really..=/ but just different layouts lol. Well that is what i just realize from my friends anyway...I just kinda hate the wait when they don't text back ¬___¬ obviously depends who though lol

~*Some people have to learn some people wait there turn some people but not me I was born a champion!!!!!*~

OMG... just talking to my friend about this party on Friday!!! XD mega excited because gonna see all my England friends and everything =] just gonna b soo much fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =p well i hope!! MY ex gonna be there lol but im gonna pretend he is invincible !! WOOO cos otherwise gonna ruin my night!! and do i think he is worth ruining my night?? NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I should really stop mentioning the asshole in my blogs =/)

But anyway soo sooo sooooOOo excited!! !=] gonna stay in bham for 2nites so gonna raid thru bham with my friends heheh! ve got my dress...but i really hope i stick out though..=[

SOOO EXCITED! so excited to glam up and get drunk hahha =p and im gonna make my bitch, Gavin to carry me back to the hotel mUHAHHAHAH!!! =p

~*Paper heart *~

hes pretty gd =]

~*sweet like chocolates*~

Hmm after that last nonsense post!!! haha when i was trying to sleep and i was thinking..and i think about weird things when im sleeping but this popped into my head!! And I think its pretty good =]

Girls love chocolates. Guys are like a box of selection chocolates. Why? hahaa ill tell ya why. A box of chocolates have all different flavours, textures, colour etctetc, : some can be sweet, some can be bitter, some can be hard, some can be soft, theres white, milk and dark....ALL KINDS of chocolate!!! =p Girls should try every type of chocolates to see which one they like best ;) 

Sometimes chocolates can make a girl very happy =] ahha yeh very random...Im always thinking about FOOD LOL...

theres a story that my friend told me ages ago! XD 

God baked some gingerbread men, on the 1st batch, they where undercooked...and pale= this is how he made the white people ( I dont mean to be racist but i dont no what else to call them =/)

on his 2nd turn, he overbaked them...and is burnt = this is how he created the black people ( south african people?)

on his 3rd try he cooked them into perfection, golden brown...;)= Asian people

hahah yeh ok that sounded a bit like racist saying that Asians are the best...>___< but i always remembered this story cos its was interesting lol XD

yep sorry for my randomness lol XD 

xXx

~* =[ *~

hai.. I'm such an idiot why do I always do the stupidest things ever =[ Basically... it was my ex's bday yday...and I wasn't going to say Happy Birthday to him at all...but then I felt a bit nasty for not saying it to him.. and like I do kinda miss him.. miss tlaking to him and everything. Though I hate what he did to me...so maybe thats why Im quite nasty to him when I talk to him. It's weird cos when I talk to other people I'm more cheery and funny... but when I talk to him its like...harsh and nasty...
I always say things I don't really mean to be nasty to him though...but I think I just want a reaction from him, but meh he never does...
Like I have nooooo feelings for him....ok maybe just a lil, probs like an atom!!!!! hahah XD

I probs made myself look like an idiot to him though today...=/=\ I did it again sigh...T______T my pride... he doesnt understand how im like doing stuff that is losing my own pride and "losing my face" say it in chinese! ... I feel bad I say stuff that I don't really mean...hmm

AAAHHH... i miss talking to him like a friend.....miss him as a friend....mmiss how hes sooo stupid......and everything...but urgh.....i probs cant get the way he hurt me...

I have very mixed feelings atm...what do I want? I dont like him....


You know i think he changed me in a way...like i feel like im much more nastier...(towards him mayb) i swear at him...out of anger...say things i dont even mean........and its not even me at alll.....

Yes, I am stupid, my friends keep telling me is it worth getting upset over him? and how he treated me so bad.....

Maybe some of my friends think Im overreacting...but when i was with him...he never really done anything for me at all.. llike anything special i can remember.... ok yes. He may have got me some lil things like toys and stuff.. i begged him to get a teddy bear. Basically he didnt get me the bear cos he wanted to get me it, like without me asking.
The amount of things Ive actually done for him and he doesn't even know... i dont even think anyone really understands how it was really.Yeh, Hes not a bad guy, maybe not a bad friend..but boyfriend not so good...but just how he treated me wasnt good. He took the advantage of me...took the advantage of my feelings, everything. For an example. He says to me to "help" him buy a book online so I did...he said he was gonna pay me back but when book arrives he doesnt pay me back...soo many things that he has took the advantage of me and doesnt appreciate me...

I really wanna be sooo  nasty to him...but then i feel so guilty!!!!!!!!!!!! like i end up saying sorry when i was right...sigh....I always back down...to everyone really....hate being so nasty....

After it ended with me n him, I think i did change. I was always upset and mardy n crying. But now i think im more like my old self butttttttttt hmmm a bit nasty...to him lol. I think i just trust ppl to easily and how i think everyone is not soo bad...=/ thats why my mum worries cos i think everyone is gd....

haha my friend, always say everyone can be nice...-___-" yeh i suppose lol..

Oyeh haha i didn't finish what I said earlier..went off track, so yeh I call him up pretending to ask something about computers (partly true..) but really wanted to say happy birthday even though i was a day late...and then he seemed like he didnt want to talk to me and I was like hmm i found it akward to talk to him, so i ended it early the call...then i sai dmean stuff to him...
he thinks im weird now..and yeh i think im weird too =p


Sigh tbh i wish he would change his nuumber....cos i wouldnt call him...( i no his number off by heart..) probs annoy him a bit mayb i dont no...=[ sigh...

I wonder what do i want from him? this whole post i dont even understand what the hell im talking about...
I know theres quite a few guys who are interested in me (Im not big headed btw...-___-") and there is a guy who i kinda like...I am moving on, but  i just feel a bit upset not talking to him... i miss it....or do i? URGH  im confused......someone help me out and analyse for me please!!!!!!!!!!! =[

~*Let's ZUMBAAAAAAAAA*~

Heyo!!

Guess where I went to do last night??? =] I went to a Zumba class and omg.. I LOVED IT <3 Basically it's just shaking your booty!! ^____^ LOL its fun and yeh it's something I kinda enjoy lol It wasnt that hard cos I basically shake my ass in the club anyway ^___^ XD. I think you girls should try and do it! I think you will have a fit bum and toned abs!! =p

DEFO going back again next week! But im gonna go front row this time cos yday we went at the back and this kinda ermm...chubby woman was blocking our view..I don't mean to be nasty but the teacher was really tiny so the size of her blocked our view of her. YES im so nasty >__<

After the class I done some more exercise, went on the cross trainer and the stepper and then done some weight which I think that is the main reason why my muscles hurt hmmm...

 Here's a taste of what zumba is lol u can do it at home but I think its much more fun doing in a class with other ppl...

~*When will the bitching end....?*~

Ok.. this is gonna be a mega RANT!!!! URGHHH RAGINGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

STUPID PEOPLE AND THEIR BIG ASS SHITTY MOUTHS!!>=[. 

Ok basically today,  someone told me, that there was a rumour about me getting plastic surgery... SERIOUSLY? COME ON!?!?! The reason why they said that was because I've lost weight or something..=/ 

A few years ago, I had a bit of a dispute with my friends...cos when I was in HK, my friend told me my other friends where talking about me behind my back...saying something about my weight...so this friend who heard thought it would be good to tell me about these friends talking about me. Well, I only heard one part of the story and then I got really upset cos I was quite chubby and was sensititive about my weight. So my mum noticed that I was unhappy and asked me what happened and then I blurred it out to her about my friends making fun of my weight. So obviously my mum was mad la...but I didn't want any drama at all. I think my mum got really mad cos one of them was my cousin and then she kinda took it out of proportion I think. Although she was only protecting me...in the end things just got messy...

When I got back to the UK, I wanted to move to England to study...so people thought that I got bullied and wanted to leave my town cos I was upset? =/ SEE?! This is what I heard today...people talking shit about you and they dont even know the f***ing story!! MAKES ME SOO MAD!!!URGH!!! 

What's even worse is that they said i got surgery..=/ COME ON HOW STUPID ARE PPL!? I was probs only 19-20? at the time? Do you think my parents would have allowed me to get surgery?!?!  =/ ALSO!!!! If I did get surgery...I would OBVIOUSLY GET MASSIVE BOOBS LA!!¬____¬ n fix up my face!! LOOK at me do I look plastic to u?! So many imprefections!! GAWD!! It makes me really wanna slap them people who just gossip and add crap to the orignal story!! GRR!! Why can't they just ask me if they want to know rather than hearing it from other people n stuff!! If you don't know the full story, just don't tell people...I hate rumours..this is why i hate my town cos I think everyone just gossips about each other cos they have nothing to do. AND FYI! I haven't done anything or planned to lose weight, i just lost it, maybe due to me being depressed last year. So i wish people would just STFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¬_______________¬ 

sorry but that rant had to be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh feel sooo much better now...=p I'm just gonna laugh at this stupid rumour..in a way its funny but also it pisses me off...but I'll choose to just laugh off this.

~*See I can be your heart insurance, And any time you need reassurance*~

Hmm...today's random subject... LOOKS.

I've been having these conversions with my friends recently. Most people say they don't go for the looks but for the personality...but hmm I kinda think its all lies really. Cos I see them only really going for the nice looking ones..

Personally, I ain't too shallow. I am not a person who really goes for looks, but really the personality is the KEY. Ok,hmm I'm not going to lie...I do kinda go for the looks first, but really looks is the first thing that attracts your attention to them. I don't go for all the really nice looking ones but just something that attracts me to them. If you understand haha..=/ Hmm confusing what I just said...LOL. Basically the person doesn't have to be really good looking but if they havea good personality then its ok ^__^

Hmm.. I hope you guys don't think I love myself cos I take pics of myself or what..no..I'm not....I'm not shallow at all!! Hmph...

Hmmm....ya know my ex was seeing that biattchh...I don't know I did something really bad..haha I just was curious and everything...So i showed my friends a pic of her just wanting their opinion...but I didn't really say anything about him n her though. But i wanted to see what they thought of her and they where all saying that she was...not nice-looking....they said some really nasty stuff about her looks so i didn't want to be realy nasty.=/ I did kinda guess he did like her for her personality then, cos she did they same course as him so I understood why he liked her I guess..=[ I wanted to share the same common things with him sigh.. but anyway that's all in the past really ^________^ I kinda guess its fun to meet new people haha =p but obviously if i saw him with her or him with other girls...it will kinda upset me i guess...=[ even though i dont want to be with him and have no feelings..probs i will be wondering why he never treated me like that when i was with him or how come he did that blah blah...if you kind understand what i mean!!!!>_<

I think its the thought of him kissing other girls or doing it with other girls..

yeh this is a random mo liu post really >___< just wanted to do something while waiting to dye my hair..=/ and the outcome wasnt what i wanted! Its too dark hopefully the colour will wash out though =[

that is all

ciao ciao x

~*Gave you all i had..You tossed it in the trash...To give me all your love is all i asked..*~

Heyo! 

Just showing you another nite out pics =] Went out cos the Edinburgh, and Newcastle people came over to party! ^___^ Hmm was a random out really but was kinda good to see all them lot. 

I was supposed to go out with Louise, but she was really ill >__< so i went out by myself basically =[ but i knew quite a few people who were out i guess haha. 

Dress: Topshop, Heels: New Look

 Hmm... look a bit young here don't I? XD U__U"

hehe a bit of posing here ;)

 Basically got ready at lou's...cos we where meant to go out together but she was sick so I went out myself..=[ Well i got a lift from Eddie, the guy below who got his face chopped off hehehhe =p  so he was my bitch again for the day.. He think's im weird..cos i say random things or something..¬___¬" I do not...XD

Went to Karbon again.. im really getting bored of the place zzz...the music was crap and fugly guys grabbing my ass again..but i do not have the guts to turn round n slap them!!¬¬

Wasnt too drunk I guess =] Nothing exciting I remember that night i think! =/

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 Hmm, the last pic i quite like it cos i look a bit tanned =p don't you think I look really tan here?! Cos I like it =] I want a tan now lol but hmm don't know which one I should go for..sunbeds or fake tan and smell like soysauce lol.

~*Don't hold your breath, You can't touch me now...there's no feelings left....*~

Yo! Sorry I've not been blogging much >____< been kinda busy these days >___<

Did you guy shave a nice New year?? Did you know that Scottish people calls New Year Eve Hogmanay? I don't know why...but in Scotland we call it that...

Well, I didn't tell you what I did for New Year's!! XD Went out with a few friends and also it was one of my friend's bday!! It was her 21st and shes a New year Baby awwww how cute hehe...

Anyway we went out to Karbon again..Omg that place is just getting SOOOO boring... I prefer Bamboo which they have better music and better atmosphere!! X[

I was kinda having a panic attack before I went out cos I was working and it was busy and I wanted to leave extra early!! >___, Left like at 9.30ish so I rushed home to get showered and put makeup on.. took me less than an hour to get ready!!!!!!!! Was well pleased hehhe...

Me and the Bday girl ^^

Me and my friend Celia, Just to show you what i was wearing really nothing special =[

Anyway the night was okish....some stuff happened and I do not wanna mention it again =[ I think I'm kinda traumtised by it O___o sigh...=[ That night i think Suzie got smashed hehhe =] which was quite good lol had a bit of a laugh in the end ^__^ hahahahha ohyeh she was my new years kiss lol...did you guys get a new year kiss?

7th of Jan 2011

A trip to Manchester =], for my friends 21st bday!!! Road trip!!! ^___6 That day I didn't even sleep at all =[ couldnt really get too sleep!! The bus was at 11 but it got delayed for an hour =[ boohoo and it was welll cold that day!1 GRRR...

=[ no sleep....

 haha oyeh! ^_______^ the guy was kinda cute I thought...=] I thought he was one of these people who wakes up really early or something...so I asked him can he call me to wake up...like at 8...since i didn't sleep lol, I got a text saying "wakey wakey..." haha XD sigh... aww was kinda cute! XD cos I realised he texted me and went back to sleep...but a text...=/ to wake me  up? LOL I need like 2897487 alarm clocks to wake me up lol  and a text wouldnt wake me lol. He told me to wake him up at 9.30..so i waited till 9.30 and called him to wake up, At first i was scared incase he was one of them guys who arent a morning person and is like grumpy!! Cos ex was a grumpy morning person.=/  anyway was kinda cute listening to his lil morning voice heheh =]

I got picked up from my house by a friend and then dropped the car at my other friends flat!!! Headed to the bus station and waited for an hour till bus arrived...Finally got the bus... and  I was starting to feel tired and I was SOO paranoid incase my friends took photos of me sleeping lol! me sleeping=very piggish like X[

We arrivedabout 5ish...so we headed to the appartment, which was really nice and big!!! =p We hogged the best beds lol, We got the en-suite muwhahhaha =]. So just just freshened up a bit and headed to town..cos i didn't really have an outfit =/ so rushed out to find one heheh...so we went at Arndale...n shopped about...found outfit etcetc...gonna skip the rest of the details otherwise you would get bored..XD

SO we rushed back to get changed and showered....the karaoke was at 8! and we was already 30mins late =[...I drank a bit...so I was kinda brave enough to sing hehhe yeh I can't really sing though unless they have the person actually singing lol.

Omg the toilets stank like cat piss..=/ i had to hold my breathe to pee ><

tired and arrived at appartment!

girly piccie!

haha random guys at the back XD

On the way to karaoke hehe

lol suzie..

We left K2 about 11ish? and headed to the Printworks...went to that club called opus? or something was totally dead =/ and spent £3 to get in¬________¬ so we left and went to this shitty club called ppure lol...wasnt that good =[ lol quite funny how we have to go thru them airport security thingys!! haha

Hmm yeh, had some shoots...oyeh hahah my friend Kirsty..omg shes sooo hard to take down..before we went ot club she had quite a few to drink! XD and still standing n fine at the club affter drinking some more omg soo good hahha XD Anyway, we danced a lil, the music was crap...=/

U___U" we had to leave early cos Suzie was dying lol she was K.O.'D shes a light weight heheh anyway I went and looked for Louise cos she was with her manny mates...

Saw one of her guy mates so i asked him does he know where she was..and stuff... then he was like bye *HUGS* and kisses me on the cheek but i think he missed my lips..¬____¬ and then the next time he stuck his tongue in my mouth >__< omg ...these things keep happening and its not good.=___+" took the advantage when i was drunk...

So after the club we went to kwok man i think it was...hmm had some munchies and my birmingham friend came over to visit us awww.=]  So after food just headed to the flat n slept... =]

The next day we went to yumcha, and just chatted we was all tired n everything...and then we went to arndale n shopped about etcetc...nothign exciting happened but i got to chat to my bham friend!^__^ he was like a loner though pimping with all the girls lol Headed back to the bus station, and the bus ws delayed because of the snow ..gay waited for an hour =/ AGAIN! GRRR...Eventually bus came...got lift home and snoozed the next day...was mega tired lol

That about it I guess =]

on our way back to glasgow =[

=[ can see our faces where sad...cos we were tired and the bus was an hour late cos of the snow..=/