~*Forget about the future & forget about the past. The only thing that matters is the present & making it last. ♥*~

omg....its already the 10th of December!! =o Seriously the days have gone by soooooo FAST!! >< But in a good way YAY! its good! =] cos he's coming to the UK soon =] I was gonna go to this party in Birmingham, but i couldnt go anymore cos theres no trains since its boxing day!! =[ was a bit sad cos i wanted to see him..but hes coming up to Scotland =p YAY! Well hes going on a road trip with his friends though...but hes staying over for a few days =3 Party at his! WOOO!!

Anyway, made some Christmas tree cupcakes! i was planning to sell them =[ but i don't think my cupcakes are good enough!!

Ive made some other cookies that kinda look like chocolate!XD but, they are in the fridge atm, so i'll show u pics the next time!! =]

nothing else to blog....just wanted to share these pics to you guys =]

bye bye xx

~*my heart is confused...=[*~

AHHH...:'( why is love so complicated....

Two guys who like me.....and im confused who i like best. I don't want to hurt either one of them....URGGHH!!!

One is in HK but hes coming back over the xmas holidays and we have been talking to each other for months now everyday....but the other one lives in the UK and he seems to like me a lot...hes very nice to me and treats me well...I do like him but i don't know if i like him as much as the hong kong guy....I dont no im sooo confused...i feel like I'm a player..

Lets call hong kong guy mr. A and UK. guy mr. B. Mr B. actually confessed he likes me a lot for a whole year...and wants to go out with me a few weeks ago.....but i wasn't too sure if i liked him that much to go out with him cos to be honest i liked Mr. A more...But i gave him a chance saying just to see each other first before jumping into a relationship...

Well anyway Mr.B, I know his sister and his family knows me for some reason...and they like me a lot! They thought i was his gf at first but i said NO im just his friend! U__U". We hung out the other day and it was quite nice tbh! ^^ we had a lil giggle! hehe!  I know i do like him a lil bit....all my friends like him too and told me to go for him...

anyways...Mr. A, hes working in Hk atm, i had a thing with him when I was in HK, but didnt last long cos i came back to the UK, but we still kept in touch. We do get a long very well!! We chat a lot mostly random stuff...and i feel comfortable talking to him about everything! =] I knew it wouldn't work out since he's in HK...but just there...he just said hes coming back to the UK for xmas, and asked me to go down to see him..=[  i don't know!!!! 

I FEEL CONFUSED!!!=[ I feel bad...i feel like im a player.....my heart says to go for Mr. B? but my head says no...

I can't go out with Mr.B if i have feelings for another guy...should i tell him that i like someone else as well? I don't know im confuseeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!..........

Why!?! why oh why!!? When im looking for a guy theres no one...but when im not looking for a guy two comes up at once!!!!!!!! plus! Im bad with rejection...=[ 

~*I can be ur Juilet and u can be my Romeo... =] *~

Ughhh.... it's killing me soo bad....I really REALLYY REEEEEEEEEEEAAAALLLYYY like this guy.. its actually torturing me cos...basically he's too far...

I'm sure he likes me too...we talk for ages on whatsapp ...i wish we spent more time together!! Sigh why did the time had to be short...but im glad we kissed though *teheheh* 

The more i talk to him and got to know him more...the more I like him...cos hes just tooo adorable...tried not to like him as much but i can't help myself!!!!!!theres other guys who's trying to flirt with me, but NO! i dont want them...I want him...  

He's basically probs one of the nicest guy that i have met...we just get on sooo well....(i hope he feels the same way..=/) 

It sucks cos i wanna hug him...and make him nice food...and everything..=[ suckies that im in a different country...*sigh* shall see how it goes i guess....don't really know what im getting myself into...=[ 

There is a possibility that i will move to HK soon maybe next year...hmm shall see innit 

Oh yeh..=] wanted to show you the cupcakes i made the other week hehe  Quite proud of them...im getting addicted to making them again!!!!

Vanilla cupcakes with some popping candy inside them so it pops in ur mouth! XD 

Lemon cupcakes =] 

Hmm. okies thats for now...=] cyu guys laters ^^ 

  *mwahhh!! * xxxx

~*I wanted you bad I'm so through with it Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had...thank god i dodged a bullet...*~

Hey...sorry another emotional post here...

A few days ago my friend told me that my ex is going out with the girl who he had a thing with when he was still seeing me...and when i went out with him, she was always there...Long story...but in my eyes...she came in between me and him, although its not entirely her fault.

When my friend told me that them two where going out...not gonna lie..my heart dropped and was kinda hurt. Cos it was HER! I think i would be ok if it was someone else...but the fact it was that BITCH!! I know it sounds nasty of me but I hated her for appearing into the scene. She made me go through all that pain and everything, i really hated her. BUT i would also like to thank her cos really thinking back of my ex, he was a total douchebag...a flirt, a player, a user...and i am REALLY glad i did "dodge a bullet.." So I'm glad I got away =P and met other nicer guys who treated me better than him! ;] 

Hmm... how do i feel now? Well although it hurt a lil when hearing about this...I don't really care anymore! I think i deserve better than him so she can have him. Hope he changed his selfish ways though...

so yeh...he really was the BEST THING I NEVER HAD =]

The lyrics of the song is really describing me atm =]

Heres the lyrics :

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

~*Never pretend a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command. ~ Alan Watts*~

Konnichiwa!!!!!!! Genki? =]

Long time no blog haven't I? XD I kinda gave up on blogging for a while, reasons where just being lazy and too busy to blog! =]

I really need to catch up with my trip to hong kong, Macau and Singapore =p

Will try to do this on another day!>< Got lots to say!!!!!! Lots of photos to upload as well X]

Hmm reason why I'm posting right now...is cos i feel a bit confused..=[ I think i like this guy...but sigh he lives too far away...and probably be impossible to be in a LDR..=[ But I like talking to him, and he's pretty cute as well...>< *sigh* @confused.com......



OYEH, I didn't update you with the previous guy that i mentioned before...hahah! Well, I just told him to just be friends, I wasn't really feeling it...and he agreed as well. But hes being funny cos hes still not really talking to me..=/=\ but i talk to his friends still though! We broke it off before I went to Hong kong, though to be honest i was pretty upset about it! But he wasn't just the guy for me, so had to end it before anyone gets hurt...I did like him in the beginning but it went down hill afterwards...U__U" He was a bit weird...

Back to the other situation, I feel like I'm starting to like him a bit more...but hes in another country atm, and don't know when the next time I will be able to see him....don't even know when hes gonna come back to the UK! Grr...Don't know what I'm getting myself into..=[ I wanna stop talking to him so I wouldn't like him as much?! He has kinda been flirting with me too..but i don't i only talk to him as a friend! >< Don't want my heart to be broken...(<3) <<heart in a shield lol. Ohyeh..... forgot to tell u...hes kinda a friend's brother...well I wouldn't really call her like a close friend, but someone who i talk to sometimes.>< Hope she doesn't know about this otherwise pretty embarrassing!!


Okies thats all =p I shall try to oblog more often...=]

xx

~*So, i won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate I'm yours..=]*~

Hello! =] 

Ok...i know i've not really been updating much...but its cos can't be bothered and other things are kinda distracting me atm! XD

hehe yeh...him kinda!  Bob lol.

Well so far...not being doing much but today we went to the casino for dinnner!  Wow...I don't usually go to the casino btw...but WOOW!! SO posh and pretty!!!! So fancy and everything!!!

@ the Glasgow Quay!! =] 

Probs looked like an idiot in front of him taking pics and stuff  

Just a glimpse of him for u! XD haha hes got a bit of korean hair lol.

hehe soo cute =]

He ordered fish cakes. Looks quite yummy!

I got tomato and basil soup yummeh!

Ok I know tomato and basil soup is just basic...but I love soup!! Usually...I would only drink soup for my dinner...so I was soo full after this!

Had steak as well!!

Urgh...I'm one of these people who can't really eat big portions!! So like he kinda had to munch most of this for me..

Im sorry for the crap quality pics lol...i was a bit embarrassed to take pics like an idiot/ tourist person! 

Just chatted for a bit and then he was talking about what he's doing for his birthday...and questioned me if i remembered his bday!!! ... Couldn't really remember!!! Well guessed it right the 2nd time and he kinda got a bit mad at me cos he told me before and I forgot lol XD. He remembered mines though...awww 

After dinner we just walked about in the casino for a bit! Holding hands and stuff   and him singing to himself again lol XD.

Went to the cinemas as well again to go see "Thor". Hmm the movie altogether was....probs 7/10. Not much fight scene wish it could have lasted a bit longer and the story to be a bit longer too!!!

He got me ice-cream and some sweets...hes trying to beast me up!!!

Oyeh...was holding his hand through the movie and haha...U__U" my fingers kinda hurt atm!!!

Hmm...i think hes told people about me!! U__U" kinda embarrassing as well...cos he showed them my pic and they think I'm pretty and that I look very young!! U___U" I'm 22!!!! 

Oyeh I made him some white chocolate strawberries too! =] And some chocolate =] hehe I hope he likes them!!! 

Also got him this lil owl light thing cos its to remind him of me since I sleep very late sometimes lol XD 

Oyeh! About the London guy...sigh...I don't think anything will happen between me and him cos hes in HK. Also people say hes just a big flirt...but I don't know hes just like that I guess...and I'm sure he will be finding some girls in HK anyway since they are soo fit..U__U"

This guy, just me and him have things in common I guess. We both like Korean things and hes just cute! Can't wait to see him next time hehe =] 

Thats all for now! =]  

Bye xxx