Erm, I can't think of any good title for this cos my mind just wants to sleep LOL..U__U" But I want to post this as I just saw it on fb hehe! =]
I don't know if I mentioned this, but I done a photo shoot for my friend for his project!! =p I dragged my friend, Estie to do it with me! Pretending to be "sisters.." doesn't matter anyway cos all chinese ppl look a like innit ;)
<3 I think this one is kinda cute XD
I don't like how I got bingo wings....=[
Dont know why but he needed one of us...like a passport photo..=/ obv this doesn't look like one does it lol more like a school photo hahah. You know... looking at this.. U__U I wish my nose was a bit smaller, If i had a chance..I would get surgery on my pig nose ¬____¬
Yup!! That is all for now!! ^___^ We took wayy more than this!! ^___^ but it was a good experience hehe =p quite fun! XD But ya know I don't know what to do lol or how to pose, I get so stiff! O_O
Ok this time defo beddy time!!
xxx
P.s!! You can click on the photos to enlarge it!! the quality isn't good here
I should really be sleeping atm...its like 7am in the morning..sigh..U___U" but anyway, I was rolling in my bed and I don't know I tend to reflect back that has happened during the day! ^___^ Like I remember the funny things that has happened, or I remember what I should have done or do tomorrow etcetc..you get my drift? LOL. I was going to write my blog tomorrow..but I couldn't wait any LONGER! I need to write it all out cos today...it was just fun =].
Hmm, this post is gonna reflect on what happened today, so yeh it might not interest you at all, but its good for me to look back and remember! =] So, you can stop here if you want to as it might get very boring for you =p
I went to met my friends in town, like at 5. My other friends got their hair cut and dyed! I wish I could dye my hair =[ I want it back to a really light color! But I'm killing my hair! =[ Anyway, chilled at Starbucks for a bit! MMMmm Mocha light frappa...so yummy!! Maybe thats the reason I can't sleep cos of the coffee..hmmm.
So, Today we decided to cook our dinner at my friend, Lou's flat,to save some ££££!! Her flats very spacious and everything! MASSIVE, well its not massive but the ceilings very high!
We went to TESCOs to get our food, at first, we didn't even know what we want for dinner. My friend took her massive book out, "Jamie Oliver's 30 min meal" lol XD. So we picked a random meal out of the book! Something spicy sausage pasta and then another course, chicken thighs with some leek sauce! I wanted some wedges heheh...so I was in charge of the wedges,=/ TBH, I've not cooked in ages since I've moved back home U_U", probs only cooked instant noodles... thats about it HA HA!!XD.
LOL we split up to find all the ingredients and everything for dinner, was quite funny cos we were having lil competitions to see who can find it faster...LOL immature.
We got this massive bag of pasta for £3!!! 3KG!! What a bargain!
GUESS HOW MUCH EACH PERSON HAD TO PAY FOR DINNER? =] There was 10 of us, and the total bill was...£36.00 something...*drum rolls* £3.60 each!!!!! =o shocked yeh? Hahah, but you have to see how much food we had....=/ SOOO cheap to actually just cook in the house rather than go out and eat all the time!!!!!!!!!!
We went back to Lou's flat and started to make dinner! Everyone had a role to do! I was in charge of making the wedges..OMDz...I cannot cut the wedges in their shapes =[ it was all deformed =[. My friend, Ivy was in charge of the main course, (shes a better cook than all of us i think..)
Sweat, blood and tears (from cutting the onions..), took us about an hour and half to finish a 10 people course meal!!!!!!!! =o,
OMG mmm, theres this shop that does yummy ice-cream! you can get ferro rocher, kinder egg, curly wurly, etcetc just a lot of variety of ice-creams!!! So other people who weren't doing much they went to get ice-cream hehehe =p so fattening today man... T___T"
Here's some yummy photos of our DELICIOUS FOOD!!! I wish you guys could just grab through your computers and taste some XD
My cajun wedges (flavoured from a pack lol..i cheated..)
just keeping the food warm, waiting for the other guys to bring back our icecream!!!=p
*Droolls...*
nom nom nommmmy!!! My plate of food that I didn't finish off LOL...It was soo much!! the chicken was so yummy, I love the chicken skin to be very crispy and I ate soo much veggies...not much here but I kept picking it up from the plate =p
MMMM yup, the photos may make the food not soo appealing, but actually it was very very yummy!! But I must admit, Im not very a great fan of Fennel Seeds which was put into the pasta...=[ It has a very weird taste in it...
But other than that... TEAM EFFORT!! =] It was yummy, and my Cajun wedges was a hit! =p even though, it was from a pack hehehe...
OMG =[ it was kinda unfair, how I got stuck with the washing up, and...you do the sum, 10 people = how many plates, how many cutlery's!!! sigh...
So after the meal, we just chilaxed in the living room watching Hancock, which was on =] Will Smith is such a cool guy!!!! Oyeh, LOl everyone was just giving each other massages heheh was a bit funny! XD But felt good! ;)
Ate some of the icecream which was brought earlier! After that...I think I had problem even moving, my belly was like preggy belly LOL =/ so baddddd!
me n S, she was going bck to Manny to see her bf again, probs wouldn't see her for a while! =[
heh heh..i couldn't wait to start my meal!!! =p
friend ruin pic¬___¬ cos she looked away grrr!
You know this is why I couldn't really sleep, cos I was thinking, how much fun I had today with my friends!!! I really do hope to keep these memories forever!! We aren't getting any younger...we are going to drift away from each other one day...doing our own things...living our own lives...Start our own families!!! =] It just makes me very sad thinking about this tbh.. ="[ This is why if you think I take so many pics and everything, it's all for memory purposes...make me remember these times!! Its nice to capture these moments don't you think? So you can think back and laugh etcetc =]
Although I do miss my England friends as well =[ I miss going out with them and I wanna do more things with them!!! =[ Sigh...don't know why I'm being so like sad atm sigh..
Anyway I do think its bed time for me even thought the sun is actually shinning so bright U_U"
=] Today, I done some baking WOOO! =P
I tried making White Chocolate Frosting and some Matcha frosting mixed with the White chocolate =] Hope it tastes good lol...U__U I was too ffull to eat anymore cupcakes..
At first I was gonna make a chocolate cupcake, but the chocolate had some rose flavor in it and it didn't taste very good >___< so yup it was a failure =[ booohoo!!!
So I made some matcha cupcakes and some vanilla cupcakes...but you can't see the cupcake due to the very heavy frosting hehe! =]
Heyo!! Hahah don't mind the title!! ^___^ its like a flashback of the past and I guess I would like to thank my ex for the broken heart really! If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be the person I am today. hmm I think I have really changed though after him. Like I don't trust people as much as before. I used to trust people so easily and everything...
I just wanted to talk about the title a bit but this wasn't what I really wanted to talk about!!¬___¬ hehe another day out in Karbon!!! =p Cos my friend from England came up to see her bf, and she wanted to go out!! So yeh I took her clubbing in Karbon!! OMG guess what! That night Tinie Tempah was out!! >___< Yeh I saw him, but I couldnt take a pic of him damn it cos of the bodyguards, GRR!! hes soo cute haha he had the geeky glasses on awww =p
So yup, I think we all drank quite a bit and im such a light weight as well! U__U I think we got like 3 rounds each!! one shot, one vodka each time...=/ and then other people got me more drinks too! Don't even know who they were but they gave me a drink O_o but don't worry my friend knew them...
Danced, danced...and yeh that was basically it..nothing...well something happened to me again..U__U" don't really wanna talk about that..
Hmm.. I don't know if its a good or bad thing.. when everyone thinks your cute... I don't know if I like being called cute...Im 22, and I keep getting called cute...I mean literally everyone...U__U". I try to wear lots of makeup, dress older...but still get the cute image...=/...Yeh it's a nice thing when people call you cute I suppose, a compliment...but I don't know, I need to get a mature image!! I can't be like a kid forever! Some people think im like 18, or under...I got I.D'd to get glue the other day U__U"
I asked my guy mate, what he thought of me, and he goes "you are very, very, very cute..." haha awww but kinda got annoyed! He said its cos I've got a very bubbly personality and happy like! Hmm... I suppose it's ok...but I really don't wanna be a kid no more...but I can't really change myself... I guess I need to learn to just accept it...It's hard to change....
This is what I wore for the night, I got the top from Miss Selfridges, It was a bit big though kept hanging off at the shoulders, Haha yes big difference from this pic n the rest =p, Anyway p.s. a bit with the effects...not much difference from the original though...
Our Like stamp!!! =p
hehe me n the bday girl who didn't want any photos taken =[ because she was pissed lol.
lou lou n me
friend from England! ^___^
Thats all really, sorry if this doesn't make any sense soo tired U__U anyway nite nitexx
My friend posted this video on his facebook, and I thought it was quite interesting its about people being ANOREXIC, while majority of them being girls. Just watch the video,...>___< might be a bit disturbing...
Disgusting huh?...I found a quote... "An imperfect body reflects on an imperfect person". These girls are so insecure about themselves, thinking being skinny will solve their problems.CAN YOU SEE THAT THEY WERE BASICALLY SKIN AND BONES? URGH!! Just how the world thinks being skinny is healthy and thats what makes them pretty or PERFECT!! Which its not! Not when they are like this!!! It's not even healthy. They are like a walking skeleton..=/
I asked my friend what he thinks the quote means and this was his answer: " term perfect does not necessarily mean a perfect body with the perfect curves, tones and height. therefore a small person can be as a perfect and useful as someone who is 6 feet tall. the moral is to that the persons personality can be refelected on how they appear by sight. for example a person walkin with their chin up and straight back would reflect a more perfect person than someone who a slouch back and lookin at the ground while they walk" Good description right!!?!! haha hes a geek!!
Anorexia is not always linked to weight issues though...other things can also lead to anorexia, like depression, stress, these things can start it up. I know that if you are going through depression some people lose their appetite or some binge eat...When I get really depressed, I tend not to eat, it's not like I don't want NOT to eat but I don't feel hungry or just even a few bites..I feel full already... hard to explain...After I broke up with my ex...I think I've lost nearly a Stone.
Though some girls just intend to lose weight because seeing the celebrities losing weight or how skinny their idols are...or the media has implementing the idea of being skin'n'bones makes you perfect by starving yourself...When in reality, you're just killing yourself slowly...
Take a look at these facts:
Nine percent of 9-year-olds admit to having vomited in an attempt to lose weight.
Forty-two percent of first-, second-, and third-grade girls say they want to be thinner.
Fifty-three percent of 13-year-old girls say they are unhappy with their bodies.
Seventy-eight percent of 18-year-old girls say they are unhappy with their bodies.
See how young girls thinking they are fat? 53%...that is a high number! What influences these girls? What makes them think they are fat? Maybe due to bullying, I remember when I was in school the guys call the girls fat all the time when they arent even fat. Just the idea of people thinking skinny is a good thing....
Omg...9 year old already trying to puke their food back up...at such a young age you are meant to be going through growth, needing those vitamins and nutrients to grow!!!!
I have been through some issues myself, thinking I am fat. To be honest, I do think I am still fat. WHY? I think its cos how people make fat jokes..and it makes me think I am really fat. Like a couple of days ago, went to dinner with friends, we where talking about how Hong Kong people are so obsessed with their weights and how skinny they are. My friend who is probably a size6-8, saying she has to wear a size M-L. My guy friend, who looked at me and said, "Does that mean you have to wear XXXXL?"... OK... it might have been a joke..but I think he was actually being kinda serious...well not sayin I have to wear XXXL but just basically saying I was really fat... It was pretty offensive, and I really think I should just laugh it off and not take it serious. To be honest...IS IT NECESSARY to make such fat jokes?? Why do you want to say things which hurts people? Putting them down...When people say things like that...it can lead people to be anorexic..bullying, teasing...
When I was young, probs..13-4?A very close friend, who was soo obsessed with her weight, thinking she was fat and everything. I don't know she kinda influenced me thinking I was fat too. She told me a secret...she pukes up her food after she eats...She told me by puking up the food, you can lose the weight. She kinda influenced me to do it too...OMG. seriously its not even worth it. She learned how to do this by watching t.v.. I used to eat and then puke it back up again, after meals and everything. I eat and think "OMG, I'm going to get fatt"...go to the toilet and stick my hand down my throat...Yeh totally not worth it cos its soo painful and tiring!!>___<
What other things that influenced me thinking I was fat? Family, my brothers always used to make fun of me saying I was SOO fat and always made fat jokes...My dad...he calls me "Fai mui"- fat girl in chinese. Do you know...he told my mum to tell me to lose weight..cos I was so FAT? =/ URGH. See the pressure? This is why I'm so obsessed with my weight. Even my aunties and uncles, talk behind my back...saying I was fat. One of my auntie's said to my cousin's girlfriend, who has never seen me before or even met me, she told her, "Leila is so fat"...seriously?? Was that necessary? Urgh...she used to say to my other aunties that I was ugly and fat.. and her daughter was so pretty n everything..=/ But I mean she was a mature woman she shouldn't be even saying things like that anyway..=/
Omg, I used to cry all the time when people said I was fat...I don't even know why I was fat, cos I do sports and everything...I used just skip meals and tried to do more sports but it didn't work.. I don't know if I just had puppy fat or whatever. I used to pop some diet pills and everything...at such a young age..It's not even good for you.
I think there was a stage I had an eating disorder. I used to go to the gym EVRYDAY, well I had a day or two for rest. I used to just eat fruits and salad. Yes, it was kinda healthy, but Im not getting enough nutrients. Then my eating habit got less and less, I used to just eat like an apple or a few oranges...thats my meal for a day. My friends where worried for me cos I didn't look healthy when I thought I was being healthy. They said I looked really grey and tired out. There was times where I felt really light headed and felt really dizzy. In my mind, when I looked at fast food, I go omg so many calories, haha I used to keep a calorie diary, calculating what I ate, and sum up how much calorie I had on that day! But then I stopped haha cos I realised what I was doing and everything. then started eating normally.
Just yesterday, I was tidying up my room, I tried on a few of my jeans, and they were literally falling off my waist!!!>___< I couldn't believe it! People tell me that I've lost weight and I look skinny etcetc...But when I look in the mirror, I just still see that I'm fat, still the same, nothing changed etcetc...maybe cos I look at myself everyday so I can't see any changes... Which is bad...and tbh.. I still think I am fat...chubby...
I think Hong Kong, they are too obessed with weights, seriously. Some people who are just average or even really skinny and Hong Kong people think they are fat!!! SERIOUSLY, HONG KONG PEOPLE SHOULD JUST STOP BEING SOOO OBSESSED WITH THEIR WEIGHTS!!!! When I go back I get so paranoid cos everyone was soo skinny and everything...=[
I used to do a lot of sports, I am a sporty girl, don't look at my weight and think I can't run or anything. Cos I can. I used to be in the hockey team , the athletics team and so on...maybe thats why i gained weight after I stopped lol...
I think, you just need to lose weight in the right way..not by just starving yourself, or by puking it back out....
Lose weight by eating healthily, do regular sports or do something active... and plus learn not to listen to people and if you are happy with the way you are then thats fine!! ^____^ I guess just love your body more!! Should appreciate that you even have food on your table...poor countries who aren't privileged to have nice food or even clean water...
Thanks for reading if you read all of this lol. xxx
Did you guys have a good valentines day? =] It's the time of the year where you can be corny as you like and get away with it lol!! Well I had a good one ^____^ Spent it with my friends <3 and tehehe a got a rose today=] was sooo cuteeeeee of him!!!!!!!=p awww
People where saying that white was for funeral...¬____¬ he was gonna get me a red but he said it all ran out of the reds lol.It doesnt matter cos its the thought that counts. Still think it was really sweet of him =p
So i thought I'll do something valetinesy! lol I made some cupcakes!! ^____^ originally, I was meant to make white chocolate buttercream cupcakes..but something happened when I melted the chocolates haha! XD it turned into a big massive blob..=/
Woke up early to make the cupcakes =p , I wanted to make some marshmallows ones too! But the thickness wasn't right so it was a failure =[. BUT practice makes perfect though! =p My mum doesn't like it when I use the kitchen cos I make a mess apparently..=/ I don't!! I clean up afterwards! sigh...anyhow!
I had one of my cupcakes today and it tasted pretty nice actually!! My other friends said it was nice too =] Tasted like the ones from the store but NICER!! ;) bighead lol..but did u know they was gonna charge you £40 for a class just to make cupcakes..=/? In my opinion...its not worth it!!! They said they will give you some champagne etcetc...maybe it is fun to go with a friend or something but...too expensive!!!
Anyway, Sorry I always get sidetracked!! So I melted chocolate and remoulded them into love heart shapes and I sprinkled some gold dust on them to make it nice n fancy!! =p This time the chocolate didn't turn into a blob!! Which I was happy with, cos the chocolate was expensive!! =[ Green and Black chocos!! O________O
~*We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.*~
Thats one of the finished cupcakes! as u can see the chocolate wasn't settled enough, so it melted a bit on the top =[. Hmm actually quite pleased with my results!! Looks quite pretty ^____^ and actually tasted ok haha.But its very sweet >___< do you know how much icing you have to put into the frosting? ALOT!! I cut down on the icing though until I got the thickness I wanted. Then to decorate just chuck anything on to make it look nice n pretty! Dyed the frosting pink just for the romantic feel and the LOVE <3 ..=P I posted some really cute cheesy quotes on each one of my pics!! I thought it was kinda sweet some of them and true!! HAHA I know soo corny!! XD The quote on my title was my fav lol, cos its kinda me!! =] I am weird!! I admit that lol, everyone calls me weird, but hey! at least Im not like other people. Although, everyone is generally unique lol. Hope you get what I mean lol. ;)
*~True love never dies, even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life....*~ ='[
This quote is so true...and sad...like even though your with someone else, you still do think about ur ex, all the memories you had together and everything...This time last year..I spent the first Valentines day with my ex, but it was Chinese New Year as well that day, he had to spend it with his family to go yumcha. Yes, I can remember it well! To him, I think he didn't really care..and didn't even make the effort to please me or anything. No rose, no nothing. To me, it's very special cos it was the first time with a BF! sigh. The funny thing was, he asked me if I wanted to go yumcha the next day and I said yeh ok. Guess what he said, I told mum that you weren't going. WTH...then why did he even ask me then.. So stupid!!! He was going to Scotland with me as well! To met my family, to have dinner with my family...and it was the first time I've ever taken a guy to met my family. It was a big step. But, I thought it was selfish of him..it felt like he didn't want to show or introduce me to his family just how I did. Felt...unfair?? Evn his big brother asked why I didn't go to yumcha...Sigh, didn't even get alone time as well with him, spent it with friends cos we went out that night in Manchester! Don't get me wrong though! I do like spending time with my friends, but I wanted that day to be special =[.
Oyeh! I remember that day, I made dan tats for his family!!>___< Don't think he knows how much effort I actually tried to make the dan tats, I remember I failed one batch and had to restart it again!! Sigh. X[ I don't even think he knows how nervous I was to give his family my dantats!! Incase they didn't like them or something! I think I remember him saying that the crust was too thick...but those words weren't what I wanted to hear...I kinda wanted a praise! Something like that...more like a crave for attention, just like how a child wants a praise from their parents for an A on their work... Disappointed, was all I can say...
hahah looks like lemon tarts doesn't it!? XD
haha omg look at my ginger hair lol. but yeh this time last year!
But hey!! I've moved on, but it does kinda hurt that we have become like this...how much hes hurt me, the things I done to myself, like hurting myself, hurting people around me...because of him...looking back it... WHY AM I SO STUPID? O____O cos of him? I wonder what was soo good about him that I didn't let go? Why did I try so hard for him? May sound so stupid, but I still miss chatting to him....yes, I know,...I'm silly.
Anyway enough of my past!! I just wanted to like elaborate on the quote a bit more, why it kinda meant something to me when I read it... So yeh my cupcakes more photo spamming on it hehe!!
Lol I didnt buy these cupcakes incase you thought that, just reused a box that I had from previous cupcakes! Looks pro though doesn't it =]
nom nom nom!!!
Last but not least, a special one for a special someone =p it even has roses on them =D
Heres some of the fialed marshmallow cupcakess!!!!!!
looks like an icecream!! lol
it sunk down ='[
Looks yummy right? lol cos it WAS NOMNOMNOM!! it was steak with peppercorn sauce!! DROOLS
So yeh, went to friends to cook some dinner! We had yummy steak and LOTS of vegs I couldn't finish my plate off though...so took some home. OMG LOL the funniest plus scariest thing happened, when my friend was cooking the steak, she put the hot pan back to the stove and added more oil in...then BIG MASSIVE FLAMES went off!! OMG I COULD HAVE LOST MY EYEBROWS!! If i did I would have to draw them on like Shinchan lol! It was soo scary! I panicked cos I thought it was gonna be fire and burning etcetc. LOL lucky I wasn't holding the pan eh? or else there will defo be danger!!!!! LOL.
We always have the randomest conversations ever, talking about farting lol. My friend said she farted in front of her guy mates and she wasnt even like embarrassed about it lol, I would.. I remember I accidently farted when I was sleeping LMAO that I woke myself up cos I was embarrassed LMAO and my ex was didn't no what happened...but then I told him I farted XD hahah I literally jumped up! XD ROFL...sigh... So unfair girls can't really fart in front of guys...and guys can just fart in front of girls and not be embarrassed about it! Girls have to keep their girly and feminine image!!! GRRR sexiest!!! XD
Heyo another post, went out on Friday night cos there where a few friends bday and one of my friend is leaving to Hong Kong =[. I think everyone is moving to HK atm, I would like to move to HK but its very hard to work in HK the long hours and stuff. VERY hard work..also I don't like how packed it is in HK. Its good to have a holiday there..but living there I don't know...
Anyhow, went to town to get an outfit...and had to exchange some stuff. Met up with Goku and Sushi, did a bit of shopping and chilling out. Got home changed etcetc...usual stuff.... but AWW my lil brother so cute ^____^ I asked if he could take me to train station but in the end he drove me to the place where I was going..well not really to the place cos he left me like in the rain cos we couldnt find the place¬___¬ so I had to walk in the rain..but it was nice of him to give me lift. Yeh hes a good driver =p
Hmm a few of my other friends where out but its kinda annoying cos she doesn't like my other friend...so its like annoying how we can't get along and everything. URGH...kinda had a chat with her about it and its really annoying cos shes soooo augmentative .. I tell her my point of view and she says hers. I listen but it just seems like shes trying to brain wash me. Shes basically telling me not to hang out with my other friend. But its like really annoying when she doesnt even know her that well enough. She didnt want to talk to her because something happened which was about me n they fell out etcetc...urgh.. I just fell like Im stuck in the middle really..-___-" and i Hate it. I know shes only looking out after me and everything...
The whole night was alrite I thought..the music was kinda crap lol. Sushi got really drunk and end up gettin alcohol poisoning!! >__< hmm nothing interesting again that night just the same ZZzzZ.
But sushi was crying cos she misses her ex...kinda made me wannaa cry when I was hearing her cry =[ sigh, the same kinda happened to her like me...guy who are arseholes!!!!!!! BIG FAT DICKHEADS! who just doesnt appreciate girls feelings.. they think its ok to play with their feelings...hate players...I don't hate the game just the players who are heartless dickheads =p
but other than that!! ITS VALS DAY 2MORO =P what are you guys going to do? =] I'm not going to tell you what im going to do ;) lol
anyway!! more SPAMM PICS TEHHEHE....yeh some are like SLUTTYYY lol joke but yeh...
quite like the color of this pic!! its like red! and pink =p doesnt look like me though haha cant see my nose in it><
BOOOBIIES!!! at least u can see some lol but really i dont have any..=/
me n Monkey Shing =p
me and the bday girl! =] my eyes are like half open...cos...my eyes were very sensitive that day ¬___¬
WOOO!! a different pose lol.
That is all.. yes...a bit of posing lol. Hope you people who read it just don't think im bad...U___U just having a bit of fun =p
